If you are in the corporate world, especially in one immersed in Lean SixSigma, you know the term ’5S’. That’s what I need to do to my life….Sort, Set in order, Shine, Standardize, and Sustain. They forgot Sterile….However sterile and blah the notion of 5S is, I think it’s my first step to newness. Purge and rinse and for gosh sake don’t repeat. We received a gift from our CEO where I work for the holidays. It’s a book entitled ‘Fully Engage – How to DO less and BE more’ by John Busacker. In it he talks about ‘double booking’ your life…aka adding more and more to your life hoping that the extra things/plans/people/events/etc will improve your life and thus make you more happy/successful/complete. However I liked his statement when he said, “Double booking amounts to an “air guitar life” – furious motion and considerable energy but in the end no sound and little lasting impact.”
So as they say, out with the old, in with the new….or out with the bad, in with the good. However you want to say it, lets just start with out with the bad/old and not even think about adding anything new yet. I need to ’5S’ my life as is, body, mind, and soul.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Two roads diverge in a yellow wood…and I just want to take a nap
It has been over a year since I started a blog (Creativity=Sanity). I had just finished my BA, pared down my work life and dropped an extra part-time job, and I just wanted to experience life. I had then, and still do now, feel as though I am at a crossroads in life…however instead of going one way or the other, I just stand and look down the road…unable to take a step in either direction. There is no specific reason that is holding me back, nothing that stands out at least. No fear, trepidation, just nothing. I am more apt to sit and gaze down the roads and imagine where they could lead me as opposed to actually experiencing it. Why? Your guess is as good as mine.
As I saw that it’s been over a year since I began a blog, I had to assess what I have done this year… I started my MBA, completed my first year of my volunteer project, started another volunteer project, and attempted dating here and there, as well as taken a trip to Alaska (which was awesome)….but life still feels woefully empty. Oh and I turned 30. All I can think of is wow, my life is 1/3 over and what do I have to show for it? Sure I’m independent and educated, but in the grand scheme of things does it matter if you are educated in areas that you have no passion for? Or if being independent means being alone? At Thanksgiving dinner last week when it came to say what we were thankful for, I drew a blank. Of course I am thankful for my family and my health, but what else? All I said was that I was thankful for my new job and that I had gotten Dexter. My new fluffy orange amusing addition to my solitude. The rest of my immediate family had much more poignant things to be thankful for….the opportunity to start a new life across the country, heart problems being solved by modern medicine, relief that loved ones are healthy and well, and yet my own thanks seems sterile and empty.
I need something…not just happiness, but true joy. How? How can you stop doing your job because it makes you feel unfulfilled but it pays your bills? How can you pick up and leave your family if they need you? How do you fit in trying to be a better person with all of life’s demands?
Even when I think of what it is that I want…what is it that I’d rather be doing? I honestly have no idea. I need direction. Here’s hoping I can figure it out.
“You have gifts to give, family to love, and dreams to live. You were created to learn and grow, not to replicate and repeat.” – John Busacker.
As I saw that it’s been over a year since I began a blog, I had to assess what I have done this year… I started my MBA, completed my first year of my volunteer project, started another volunteer project, and attempted dating here and there, as well as taken a trip to Alaska (which was awesome)….but life still feels woefully empty. Oh and I turned 30. All I can think of is wow, my life is 1/3 over and what do I have to show for it? Sure I’m independent and educated, but in the grand scheme of things does it matter if you are educated in areas that you have no passion for? Or if being independent means being alone? At Thanksgiving dinner last week when it came to say what we were thankful for, I drew a blank. Of course I am thankful for my family and my health, but what else? All I said was that I was thankful for my new job and that I had gotten Dexter. My new fluffy orange amusing addition to my solitude. The rest of my immediate family had much more poignant things to be thankful for….the opportunity to start a new life across the country, heart problems being solved by modern medicine, relief that loved ones are healthy and well, and yet my own thanks seems sterile and empty.
I need something…not just happiness, but true joy. How? How can you stop doing your job because it makes you feel unfulfilled but it pays your bills? How can you pick up and leave your family if they need you? How do you fit in trying to be a better person with all of life’s demands?
Even when I think of what it is that I want…what is it that I’d rather be doing? I honestly have no idea. I need direction. Here’s hoping I can figure it out.
“You have gifts to give, family to love, and dreams to live. You were created to learn and grow, not to replicate and repeat.” – John Busacker.
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